It is more often than not that God meets us in the most unexpected of places.
In moments that God feels distant, in the moments that anxiety is overwhelming, and in the moments where we doubt the Lord’s faithfulness.
I am learning that the Father does not expect us to clean ourselves up before we feast in communion with him. He invites us, mess and all; and boy have I been a mess the past week.
Entering into training camp, I had no idea the days of anxiety, attacks from the enemy, and wrestling through my calling that were ahead of me.
As I sat in the pits of anxiety for the first few days of training camp, I questioned everything good and of God in my life; my calling to be on the race, my relationships, and most of all, God’s faithfulness. Isn’t it wild that even after I have seen God show up time and time again in my life, I still doubt his ability to do so again?
On my third day at training camp, I hit rock bottom. I wanted to give up and go home, letting the enemy win. I decided to go for a walk to clear my head and talk to God. And as I sat in a cold, dirty field in the middle of Gainesville, Georgia, God met me right there. I cried out to him with fear and confusion. I was completely honest with the Lord about how I was feeling. And God met me right there. He met me in my mess. He sat with me in my pain and comforted me in the exact way I needed at that moment.
Psalm 46:1 says, “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” This verse is true regarding the character of God. He is a refuge, a comforter, and a Father.
God gave me peace in that field. God calmed my anxiety and reminded me of the calling he has placed on my life. And the amount of peace I have felt since this moment in the field is only explained by the mercy and grace of God. It is a peace that surpasses all understanding.
I believe that throughout this past week the Lord has been teaching me to “let the bones you have crushed rejoice” (Psalm 51:8b).
This journey will not be easy, but I can stand firm in the promises of the Father confident that because he has called me here, he will provide for me here too.
I have tasted and I have seen. And I can stand in the valleys praising him, because he is good.
Also, little life update! My team and I were exposed to covid and are therefore having to quarantine until we are covid free and able to safely mobilize overseas. But God still has so much here for my squad and I even if it’s in the middle of rural Georgia. Please keep us in your prayers as we would love to jump into ministry soon.
Thank you so much!! Cannot wait to see y’all!!
So excited for these next three months with you– love you :,)
Thank you for always being so encouraging!! I love you all and cannot wait to see how the Lord moves in these next months!
Yes!! He is so good and faithful even in the hard times. Thank you for the words of wisdom š
Hannah, this is such an encouraging blog. Thank you for opening up and sharing your story! We can’t wait to see how God continues to meet you/provide for you and your squad over the next 6 months!!!
Wow Abba is so good. I am incredibly proud of you and Iām excited to journey along side you these next few months! Much love from across the table š
Hannah, I always hear your pure heart before our Abba.
He has set you in this place at this time for a purpose.
He will reveal his purpose as your journey moves forward.
The glitches in the road help us to pause and seek him.
I’m old and he still stops me in my tracks and only than can I move forward in obedience.
Looking forward to hearing about how he is changing you and your team.
Jer.29:11
Hannah, you always seem to write about your heart as mine is in the same place. I have felt far from Him so many times in this long year, but He has been so faithful, and shown His unfailing love and mercy and grace. I know He will continue showing up to you, and to me. I will miss you while you are gone, but excited for How and Where He will use you and your team. LOVE.